balik lambat lagi...

hmm... its already 12.05 am... and i'm still in the office.. luckily abang also got some works to do in office, so while waiting for him, bloging la skejap...lagipun, dah tak larat nak buat kerje...

i have been think of throwing my resignation letter seriously recently.. abang asked me to think about it deeply.. we have got liability to pay, and how do i expect to pay all amy debts if i'm jobless...last week, we went back and had a long discussion with along and mak (ingat abah ada umah, gi kedah la pulak)... hmmm.. as expected, they advice me to look for a job first.. betul jugak, with belly yang growing bigger ni bukan senang nak dapat kerje... suddenly, this morning abah call.. abah kata "resign la.. nanti kerje ngan abah.." ehhehe.. that's a good sign... though the position might not be as good as mine now.. but as long as i can run away from KPMG, is good enuff... really cannot take the work pressure here..

hmmmm... forget about it.. anyway... hanif skang dah masuk skolah biasa.. surprisingly, dia masuk SAAS.. ahhahhah.. jadi anak emak la dia... faiz pulak masuk skolah kat seremban.. but kesian him, he called that day crying to come back home.. mana taknya.. umur baru 11 thn dah masuk sekolah asrama menengah.. sian dia...

alamak.. abang dah ajak balik... bubbye

luv him so much...

hmm... believe it or not, i'm now a pregnant lady...hihhi...very fast, eh?? well, bak kata kiter orang melayu "bunting pelamin" .. mengikut calendar from babycentre.com i'll be expecting my baby somewhere around 21 August 2006.. hmm.. if only i can skip my july filing.. seems like july nih i'll be running here an there in the office with perut yang boyot.. dont know whether can stand it or not.. even now, i feel like givin' up my work already... everyday, i've been complaining of this and that.. and everyday my hubby willl have to hear all those stuffs.. now, feel like its time to leave the firm... but thinking of liability that i'll have to carry due to breach of contract with KPMG... i would just have to keep it shut in my mind..

hmm... oh, yeah.. went to see doc last week.. got a scanned picture of my baby.. alhamdulillah.. baby is growing fast and big.. doc kata ada fibroid in my rahim.. so my baby tersempit sikit kat dalam perut.. but there is no harm there... just kesian baby ummi yer.. sempit sikit, takper yer...


hubby is now busy with his filing... now it is a peek time for auditor... kesian dia.. nak balik lambat, sian kat isteri kat umah... nak balik awal, kerje tak siap.. and recently, dia selalu sakit dada malam2... hmmm.. i wish i've learnt a nursing skills much earlier.. sometimes he cannot breath at night, and i just dont know what to do... uhuhuhu... sian abang...

this morning, there is some funny feelings inside me.. suddenly i feel like i miss him soooooooo much and all i want to do all day is just hug him... but i malu to do so... so i just hold his hand in the car all the way to office.. and i hardly noticed that i actually cried!!... argh, so embarassed if he noticed.. abang, luv u...

my wedding

i have tonnes of pictures to upload.. kalau ikut hati nak upload sumer.. tapi tau la.. it will take a verrrrrrrrrrrryyyy long time.. malas la.. hihihih... have no idea.. let these pics explain everything... amiir and zulfa have had a really great time.. orang lain yang kenduri, dia pulak yang posing lebih2... but i like their pics... that day.. all family members wears pink... ehehhe... managed to get abang mahiz and my brothers to wear pink baju.!! sib baik encem... abang faizal pun tak ketinggalan.. tak dapat pink.. dia carik maroon... just wish that nora was still with us... she would be the busiest one.. tapi along and ifah pun boleh tahan.. lauk udang panjat derang buat sendiri!! woww!! tak percaya??? hmm... mak, abah.. thanks a lot for the big day.. luv u!!!!!!

My best friend's wedding

Haslina, or famously known as 'nenek'.. hmm.... once a very best friend..same school, same uni, same kulliyah, same college, same classes, same society.. but there was one incident that create a big hole gap between us.. feel pretty stupid thinking of those sad time when we had not really talk to each other.. i wouldnt blame on her.. nor do i blame myself.. it was none of our fault actually...just becoz of another friend of us whom has treated us not as we had axpected... hihih.. stupid!!

anyway, life is different now.. we both have our own life.. and as for a coincidence.. we get married merely at the same time.. only i'm a bit earlier (1 week) than her.. yeah.. just say it... I can't wait anymore longer.. hahahah...

actually i just came back with my hubby from her wedding reception (at his hubby's side).. cant believe my eyes, she was verrry pretty.. dazzling i would say.. felt very happy for her until i burst out into tears.. alamak!!! malu!!! tried to stop humiliating myself but just cant help it... hmm... nenek, i missed those sweet time of ours... congrats my dear friend...

Talking of nenek, reminds me of some other best friends.. nur, kak da, shifa, liza, rahila, dute, chepah, sul, yana, una, didi, sumail, moy... i did messed up with some of these buddies.. i regret it.. but in the end, life must go on.. forgive me friends.. i love you all....

Assalamu’alaikum wrt. wbt.

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pada hari Ahad 20 November 2005
bersamaan 18 Syawal 1426 Hijrah

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DAN

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bersamaan 24 Syawal 1426 Hijrah

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work!! work!!! work!!!

i'm under pressure right now.. tatau la bila kerje nak habis kat sini. sepatutnya our peek period sampai july jer... tapi sebab admin works... kerje kitorang continues until the next filing (Augsut) and the next (October)!!! hopefull by next month, kerje makin kurang... i started to hate working here.. i know my fiance wouldnt like me complaining like this.. esp when he's the only one who will have to bare listening to all my grumbles and what not... takperla.. terpaksalah blaja to be patient lagi...

anyway, our wedding is coming, very soon... another.. wah!! exactly one month... 19/11 nikah... punyer la takder masa.. borang kawin pun belum settle.. hihi... skang ni leceh...have to do HIV check la..amik borang kat pejabat agama, pastu sign2 sume .. have to bring wali and 2 witnesses lagi tu to sign in front of tok imam.. pastu hantar kat JAIS/JAWI.. but first kena settle kan pihak laki punyer dulu...hihshh... leceh..leceh...

hmmm... i guess i have to start learning to cook.. learn how to be a friend, sis, mum and wife in the same time... now its not only me anymore in my world... somemore he has been under a very good care of his mom.. dont know whether can beat her.. or at least be at the same level.... hmmm.. thinking of it really gives me a butterfly in my stomach.... aaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

i'm coming...!!!!

amiir ~~ very cute boy, with dimples on both cheeks, very talkative, michievious... but adorable!!!!

"amiirlah permata, anak kesayangan... kenangan ummi untuk baba....
amiir dibesarkan dengan kasih sayang... hanya yang terbaik untuk amiir...
menjadi harapan di masa hadapan, amiirlah anak baba yang soleh..."

amiir is too young when he lost his ummi.. he is very young to understand, to feel, to learn about the loss that we all feel... amiir is too young to know how great was her mum... but one day, he will know that he has a very charming, happening, loving and caring ummi.... miss her a lot!!!!!!!!!

mana abang amiir ni???

zulfa ~~ verrrry the verrryyyy the most cutest girl i had ever laid my eyes on... like to bite people.. air liur suka meleleh, just like her mama masa kecik2... ehehehhe.. sorry along...

princess zulfa... dalam dilema "muka sarawakkah kamek ker muka semenanjung kah?"
sian zulfa.. balik sarawak, org sarawak kata hidung semenanjung, duk sini org kata kulit sarawak.. apa2 sajalah zulfa yer... u have both bloods... hmmm.. rasanya dia ni akan membesar bagai johan, umur baru 10 bulan, badan dah sama besar badan amiir... really like to see her play with her abang amiir... abang amiir sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang sangat kat zulfa...

Doa seorang isteri

DOA SEORANG ISTERI
Bismillaahi walhamdulillaahi wassalaatu wassalaamu 'alaa rasoolillaahi

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim
Kau ampunilah dosa ku yg telah ku perbuat
Kau limpahkanlah aku dengan kesabaran yg tiada terbatas
Kau berikanlah aku kekuatan mental dan fisikal
Kau kurniakanlah aku dengan sifat keredhaan
Kau peliharalah lidahku dari kata-kata nista
Kau kuatkanlah semangatku menempuhi segala cabaranMu
Kau berikanlah aku sifat kasih sesama insan

Ya Allah..
Sekiranya suami ku ini adalah pilihan Mu diArash
Berilah aku kekuatan dan keyakinan untuk terus bersamanya
Sekiranya suami ku ini adalah suami yg akan membimbing tangan kudititianMu
Kurniakanlah aku sifat kasih dan redha atas segala perbuatannya
Sekiranya suami ku ini adalah bidadara untuk ku di Jannah Mu
Limpahkanlah aku dengan sifat tunduk dan tawaduk akan segala perintahnya
Sekiranya suami ku ini adalah yang terbaik untukku di DuniaMu
Peliharalah tingkah laku serta kata-kataku dari menyakiti perasaannya
Sekiranya suami ku ini jodoh yang dirahmati olehMu
Berilah aku kesabaran untuk menghadapi segala kerenah dan ragamnya
Tetapi Ya Allah
Sekiranya suamiku ini ditakdirkan bukan untuk diriku seorang
Kau tunjukkanlan aku jalan yg terbaik untuk aku harungi segala dugaanMu
Sekiranya suami ku tergoda dengan keindahan dunia Mu
Limpahkanlah aku kesabaran untuk terus membimbingnya
Sekiranya suami ku tunduk terhadap nafsu yang melalaikan
Kurniakanlah aku kekuatanMu untuk aku memperbetulkan keadaanya
Sekiranya suami ku menyintai kesesatan
Kau pandulah aku untuk menarik dirinya keluar dari terus terlena
Ya AllahKau yang Maha Megetahui apa yang terbaik untukku
Kau juga yang Maha Mengampuni segala kesilapan dan ketelanjuranku
Sekiranya aku tersilap berbuat keputusan
Bimbinglah aku ke jalan yang Engkau redhai
Sekiranya aku lalai dalam tanggungjawabku sebagai isteri
Kau hukumlah aku didunia tetapi bukan diakhiratMu
Sekiranya aku engkar dan derhaka
Berikanlah aku petunjuk kearah rahmatMu

Ya Allah sesungguhnya
Aku lemah tanpa petunjukMu
Aku buta tanpa bimbinganMu
Aku cacat tanpa hidayahMu
Aku hina tanpa RahmatMu

Ya Allah...
Kuatkan hati dan semangatku
Tabahkan aku menghadapi segala cubaanMu
Jadikanlah aku isteri yang disenangi suami
Bukakanlah hatiku untuk menghayati agamaMu
Bimbinglah aku menjadi isteri Soleha
Hanya padaMu Ya Allah ku pohon segala harapan
Kerana aku pasrah dengan dugaanMu
Kerana aku sedar hinanya aku
Kerana aku insan lemah yg kerap keliru
Kerana aku leka dengan keindahan duniamu
Kerana kurang kesabaran ku menghadapi cabaranMu
Kerana pendek akal ku mengharungi ujianMu

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku...
Aku hanya ingin menjadi isteri yang dirahmati
Isteri yang dikasihi
Isteri yang soleha
Isteri yang sentiasa dihati

Amin, amin Ya
Rabbal Allamin..

- dipetik dari ummu amiir POV, 5/12/2004 -

5 budak itam...

Here are the 5 princesses from Kg Teras Jernang (ecah takder). Budak ni pun sama.. going to UK to do ACCA... So sad.. only 5 of us left now (me, dibah, ecah, amal and hana). Believe it or not, this friendship has lived as long as i lived!!!! not really, but almost la... we have been together since kindergarten time... and still together now, though some has been kidnapped by their prince charming.. nana, ulfa.. hope u two be blessed with tonnes of happiness... and KIDS!!!! ehehheh....

farewell, dear friend

This would be my very first post in my own blog.. ello...ello.. testing, testing... ehheeh... I was trying to write since 1pm, but can pour nothing out of my brain!!

Well, Its friday today! I've got a kenduri doa selamat at shifa's house.. once a very close buddy... she's going to UK! ahh... jealous!! jealous!! will really miss her.. well something about her... she always make me jealous... hahahhah... her personality, her dressings, her family, her behaviour, her future (mmm.. how can i see that???)... i think almost everything about herself.... hihiih.. can't say much... it is almost 2pm.. counting minutes and seconds to get back to my work. To be exact.. it is already... huhh??!!!! 2:05pm!!!!??! so, guess can't start with a very good intro here...